Paperwork. No one really likes having to fill out paperwork.
Waiting. I have not met a lot of people that are fond of waiting.
Both of these things describe where we are in the process of adoption currently. We have done a lot of paperwork and we have been doing a lot of waiting. Right now we have to wait until the end of the month to get our medicals done and also we have to wait for our first psychological exam in November. The psychological examination is a requirement by the Philippines for every adoptive parent. Our psychologist is only able to meet once a month because he is only available in the office a couple days a week to meet with clients. We are supposed to have our home study and our dossier (travel documents) all turned in by December 24th or we have to pay additional money for each month these are not completed. So, there is a bit of a nervous feeling about how everything will come together by Christmas Eve. We fear we may have to pay a late fee because a lot of things are a WAIT.
The paperwork is a lot. It takes a lot out of you. And even when I am not doing paperwork, I know I am waiting for the time when I will have to complete more of it.
While all of this is daunting, we continue to press on. We can only take one day at a time. It is harder some days than others. It really requires a daily surrender. We know we are on this journey because of God and His sovereignty and His leading. We know His timing is perfect, but man is waiting hard, especially after 6 and a half years of waiting for children to call our own. I am at the point where I just yearn to get our match and be able to see a photo of our children that we already love so much. How is it possible to miss and love someone so much that you have not even met yet? We do not even know their names, but we are praying for them and waiting to see their faces.
In the meantime, we wait. We look at paperwork…we look at our calendars…we have appointments…and we wait. We pray and we wait…
We know all of this waiting will melt away when we finally look straight into the eyes of the little ones that God has given us and we kneel down and embrace them and tell them how much we love them, when for the first time my children call me “mommy”, when we hear them laugh for the first time, when I see Caleb playing with our children and getting to be the daddy he so longs to be...
All of this waiting will be worth it because the lives of our children are worth it. They deserve a mommy and daddy who will work to bring them home.
So we wait. In hope we wait because our kids are worth it all.
Isaiah 40:31
But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.
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